Tuesday, April 28, 2009

Take it from the west side

“As concisely as possible, this is it: [M]usic has intrinsic

meanings of its own, which are not to be confused with

specific feelings or moods, and certainly not with pictorial

impressions or stories. These intrinsic musical meanings

are generated by a constant stream of metaphors, all of

which are forms of poetic transformations. This is our

thesis.”

– Leonard Bernstein

Wednesday, April 15, 2009

Act II

A. Everything?
B. Everything.
A. Now?
B. Yes.
A. Now.
B. Now!
A. Why don't we just wait awhile?
B. (to self) wouldn't that be funny? giggle
    (accusing) You can't even look at her!
A. It's a sign.
B. I don't know if I believe in those...
A. Well who told you it was ok?
B. Who told you it wasn't?
    Who are they?
    Did they make you?
    Did you sign some contract?
    Did they give you that hint of ocean in your eyes? Huh?
A. (astonished) How could I be sorry for this?
B. I'll be with you even after your lights go out.

the climb

In my mind there is a place
that I keep to myself
my secrets stay collected there
stored upon a shelf

Storms come and go, as people do
absence is always felt
so I retreat into the place
where I protect myself

April showers
I count the hours
delicate
kept high in towers
let me see you smile

and then I'll let you climb the ladder

Clock on the wall is tolling
it's about that time again
back into my room to feel
the absence of a friend

Heavier things

Grass lies strings of light
dancing across a field
the field where we sit
the field where we sit and watch the sun sway
over our bare skin.

Your brown hair mingles
with my fingers
they keep their conversation light
while our eyes speak of heavier things:

the day when the sun shines slow and warm
and wonderful
and I'll walk slowly
and I'll drink it in, the moment
when we get there.

Poetry.
For I am certain.
Just enough to get there.
So we continue

Slowly

I want you
and your hungry eyes
I want your thoughts
in my head
so I can spit out the answers

the right thing to say
the words in your mouth
I'm whispering in your mouth

You've turned out the lights
but I see you staring
You're burning me
slowly

Do you feel the heat?
my mouth in your mouth
I tell myself the pain is good
I know you won't let go
I'm burned into you now.

Thursday, April 9, 2009

Acquainted with the Night

I have been one acquainted with the night.
I have walked out in rain - and back in rain.
I have out-walked the furthest city light.
I have looked down the saddest city lane.

I have passed by the watchman on his beat
And dropped my eyes, unwilling to explain.
I have stood still and stopped the sound of feet
When far away an interrupted cry
Came over houses from another street,

But not to call me back or say goodbye;
And further still at an unearthly height,
A luminary clock against the sky
Proclaimed the time was neither wrong nor right.

I have been one acquainted with the night.

Thursday, April 2, 2009

to the lighthouse.

...she did not feel merely snubbed back in her instinct, but made aware of the pettiness of some part of her, and of human relations, how flawed they are, how despicable, how self seeking, at their best...

...we know nothing and the sea eats away the ground we stand on...

...as if to be caught happy in a world of misery was for an honest man the most despicable of crimes...

...it was the refuge of a man afraid to own his own feelings, who could not say, This is what I like--this is what I am; and rather pitiable and distasteful to [those] who wondered why such concealments should be necessary; why he needed always praise; why so brave a man in thought should be so timid in life; how strangely he was venerable and laughable at one and the same time...

...teaching and preaching is beyond human power...

...life, from being made up of little separate incidents which one lived one by one, became curled and whole like a wave which bore one up with it and threw one down with it, there, with a dash on the beach...

...what art was there, known to love or cunning, by which one pressed through into those secret chambers? What device for becoming, like waters poured into one jar, inextricably the same, one with the object one adored? Could the body achieve, or the mind, subtle mingling in the intricate passages of the brain? or the heart? Could loving, as people called it, make [them] one? for it was not knowledge but unity that she desired, not inscriptions on tablets, nothing that could be written in any language known to men, but intimacy itself, which is knowledge, she had thought...

...nothing happened...

Page 45, It was a disguise... etc.

When I told you that I was reckless you said that it was okay, that you liked that about me. Maybe seeing the enormity of my recklessness was too much for you to handle after all.